Friday, 2 October 2015

A quiet week


An exhibition, Polish lessons, some catching up with friends, and a nearly purchased flat.

What to do?
We talk about what we are going to do when we are finally moved in and most of the house is ‘done’. It will never be ‘done’ as there will always be details, but you can put a lot of minor stuff off.  I am keen to study. I want to find some online courses where I can delve into history, literature, anything that grabs me.
Stefan, I now learn, has always wanted to sculpt. I think he means carve, as he loves wood with a passion. He was especially interested in the Hepworth carvings we saw at the Tate, and they were terrific. We shall see.                                              
    
Crummy pic, as not allowed!

Teaching
I closed the studio and didn’t miss it. I still had a couple of teaching commitments and they were feeling like left overs to the work. Not actually working but still teaching a bit feels like a disconnect and I want now to have a clean break.  I had a gig at West Dean, and a future gig at Morley, and have shifted both onto Peter Binnington, who is every bit as capable as myself. He wants the work, I don’t.

Compare and contrast: interaction between strangers in other European countries and in the U.K.
Laura, my friend, has been spending a lot of time on a course in a small town in  Germany. She compares interacting with strangers over there and in her small town in the UK. It is noticeable to her how much more easily people laugh and smile in the UK than over there.
Growing up in London, which is a big city and in theory should not be compared with a small town, I experienced extreme loneliness, but as an adult I feel it is the easiest thing to smile and get a positive reaction from a complete stranger; the British are a lovely and very friendly people. My earlier loneliness had a lot to do with age and lack of confidence.
My experience in Poland is mixed. I see a lot of dour faces there, and an unwillingness to engage. As a foreigner I cannot read them; even making eye contact can be hard, but familiar interaction in the local shops, for example, is delightful, as you would expect.  I have seen Stefan on many occasions fall into easy conversation with total strangers as if with old friends. So if you are on familiar ground and are sure of yourself, it is easy. I was not sure of myself as a teenager in London, and am certainly on unfamiliar ground in Poland.
It does seem to me, though I could be wrong, the Polish are less willing to talk to each other, which may be due to their history. Those years of communism determined their behavior for generations.  I cannot speak for the Germans!

To buy or not to buy
Listening to an article on radio 4 one morning about oversharing on the internet, I wondered about that. I am not going to talk about my insides or my emotional state, which is what they were referring to, but I could mention money.
I have been extremely lucky in my life and though I have not made loads of money through my work, I have however been fortunate in other ways and have managed, within the last 10-12 years, to find the funds to buy property. In 2004, my second husband and I bought our first London flat, while we were living in San Francisco. I drove that as I could see I would soon need somewhere to live in London. He was 27 years older than I, and in fact he died the next year, at 87. I lived in that flat, then much later, when my mother and father needed care together with Stefan we moved into my parent’s house and rented it out.  Later, I was able with son Laurie, to buy two further flats.  Now all three are successfully rented out.
So, where does the ‘oversharing’ bit come in?
I self-conscious about this. Though I have done nothing wrong, the fact is I am part of the have society. I would guess the great majority of my generation in the UK own property, and many have property they rent out, too. How can I not be aware that many of us are coming from a colossally privileged place? Look at how difficult, impossible it is for young people now to buy. 
However, that said, this week we nearly bought another flat. Laurie wanted to invest some savings and wanted a return on them. I wanted to help, so I said, lets try. I investigated and very quickly found out what has happened in the year since I bought the last flat. The prices for the kind of flat I would want have rocketed! It seems that ex local authority flats are now the most desirable, though they carried a stigma for years as they used to have council tenants, of course. But by now, most of them are privately owned and rented out, so the demand has shot up and driven up the prices.  With oil crashing, people need still to invest, so they are after property. It seems, with government making noises about tax increases and various regulations, things are hotting up and there may be a bubble of some sort forming, and we know what happens to bubbles.  Upshot, I am out of there. Lets leave things as they are, Laurie can invest somewhere else and we carry on.

Next week, maybe some more pictures of something fun.



Thursday, 24 September 2015

Poland to London

The house and garden as we left
Guest house with matching roof

From the driveway, quince tree




Front of house  
Back in London
We drove back slowly, stopping in Wroclaw to see a cousin and family, then stopping in Nuremberg to meet up with my son, Laurie and his family. It made the trip home much easier than belting across Europe in 10 hour stints. None of us had ever seen Nuremberg. It is a charming city with a knockout National museum. It would take days to see it all. Exquisite examples of carved and painted Baroque sculpture. The best stuff came from that region anyway: tools, clocks, instruments of all types, carving, gilding…. on and on. So much to see and so little time, we just got a glimpse.

The parents were well catered for. A lady called Karolina (Polish) came daily and cooked not as required: one portion for Henry, with a little more for my mother, but for an army. She couldn’t be stopped. For some reason I found in a drawer a total of 3.5 kilograms of caster and icing sugar. Was she preparing to make several monster cakes?
Two days in, I was anxious to get on with my London cheesecake. I wanted to use the yummy plums we brought back that were on the point of calling it a day. So, in a smaller kitchen than my Polish palace, and with several other things on my mind I nevertheless got on and made it.  It looked good, and smelled good, so when I proudly presented it to my gasping old dad, (gasping for the cake, that is) I didn’t understand when he told me they both thought it was horrible. He does exaggerate at times but really, it was not good. I thought so myself; couldn't understand it. Then I realised, I forgot the sugar.

Father is doing very well. He is so happy to have us back, we eat together each night, with stuff from the jungle that was the garden and he gets drunk.  Mother doing less well. She stays in bed all day, unable to stand or support herself, totally dependent on my dad.  Her Alzheimers is not bad though, in so much as she is complaining of boredom. 

I need to swim every day now, to get fit again. There was the warmest welcome from my lady swimming chums who I had missed and who sweetly had missed me. We meet regularly to have coffee after our swim and Henry is very much part of the group. And good it is to take him by car again, so he doesn’t have to risk life and limb getting the bus.  I understood he would get a taxi while we were away. He has a subsidised taxi card, so he rings the company and in theory they come.  However, he told me that on several occasions, although they had been given the pick up time, they kept him waiting several times. Visiting a friend nearby, but too far to walk, he waited on one occasion 1-¼ hours!  So, for swimming, back to the bus, of course.  

I am looking forward to seeing some of the exhibitions on in London just now. How wonderful to be able to do that.  Top of the list are Ai Wei Wei, Auerbach, Hepworth and Goya. Masses to see. 
Auerbach and Lucien Freud

Auerbach

Goya

Goya

Hepworth

Sad times
16 September
25 years ago on this day my son, Tom, died from cancer. He was 18 years old. At 13 he developed Hodgkin’s Disease.  Unfortunately, acute lymphoblastic leukemia followed, suddenly, five years later - as a result of his treatment. It raced through him and after 12 weeks in hospital we lost him. 

17th September 
This day, in 1939, the Russians invaded Poland. In Poland there are masses of films, of course, and we watched several documentaries on television.  The history of this part of the world is endlessly interesting. I have refugee parents, from Vienna and now we are partly living there I am more curious than ever. There is plenty of material to research, once I can read in Polish!My good friend in California has discovered the treatment she has been undergoing for this miserable disease is not working. Terribly sad, and for friends, what a dilemma! How helpless you feel. Do I jump on a plane, or what?  Jackie Collins (the author who died very recently) kept her illness from everybody. Even her sister.  But then she would have missed out on a spread of loving support. What would I do? It is terribly sad, for everyone.

Onward and upward
Back to lessons with a new teacher, Dorota, who makes me talk and after 1 hour and 10 mins  I was exhausted!  But it was great.